I am tired. I am overwhelmed. I am confused.
I was looking for a direction that I have been blatantly, refused
I had a goal, a plan, a mission to complete my blog
Everything seemed in order, about sixty minutes ago
but by now, my mind is all clog clog clog
I am not sure what went wrong…
as what I sang was a seemingly harmless song
My son had left for his school, hubby was on his daily ride…
The day looked quite and bright
I turned on my Mac, with an intention to write
The air was mild and the house help was on time
I am still looking for a reason I could put the blame on
But have failed to find one, that would eventually rhyme
As I sat to write on my digital paper with the thoughts so frozen
I said to myself…
why not warm it up with something more brazen?
I turned to “social media” to give myself a break
It would be a good change, I thought
I might just get the power fuel that I need
for the content, I anxiously sought
As a logged on, I encountered a barrage
A sluice of videos comprised of the entourage
I began watching them one by one
Carefully, patiently, with or without sound
but missed none
Videos of fast forward food creations,
of crafts DIYs, nail paints and extensions
Videos of remodelling dolls
doing their face, hair, clothes overalls.
Videos of political satire
of how the ‘baba’ of the strongest political family in the country
makes an unfathomable fool of himself
before all sorts of gentry
And thats just the first page, mind you…
Sixty minutes have passed already
Talk about writing, and I am far from ready
I am thinking about the onslaught of content that I just experienced
Recipes I will never cook, dolls I don’t play with anymore
Craft DIYs that I don’t give a shit about
Tearing my old shirts to make bags?? Yeah, why not….
And I wonder…
And I wonder…
why do I let myself get consumed by all of this, everyday?
The pretentious content turns me into its prey
and then, the fall.
I breathe and I decide to log out
I shut the social networks
And fetch a fresh blank page
Over it, I etch my rage
With few pearls of wisdom that I gathered
I pledge to myself
I will not let my mind get consumed and feathered
Just like we have time for friends and time for work
get this right…
and don’t let the temptation lurk!